It has been wayyy too long since I updated this thing. About 2.5 years! I still log on here every now and then to check out the journals from people I watch and new deviations every now and then, but besides that, I don't do much. I wish I could make a pretty journal like I used to, but as long as it's been, I can't remember the codes for the emoticons. Oh well.

Lots has happened since I last wrote, of course. I don't attend TAMU-C anymore, because of my financial aid. I now go to Paris Junior College, Greenville campus. I am a nursing major. I should be in my first year of the nursing program, but because I am a slacker and let other aspects of my life get in the way of my education, I am way behind. I am still doing my pre requisites. I'm hoping to apply for the nursing program in January of 2009. That's my goal. I plan to go to LVN school, then go on to receive my RN. I want to be a pediatrics nurse. This semester I am taking Sociology, Pharmacology, Nutrition and Art Appreciation. I really like my course load this semester, I know I'll do just fine this semester, because I'm focused and I'm determined. I've made up my mind that no one is going to get to me so bad that I let it interfere with my schooling. Never again will I let that happen!

I'm now working in Dallas as a full time receptionist at our family owned trucking company. So, not only am I going to school full time, I'm also working full time. Doesn't leave much extra time to have a typical 20 year old life. My drive to work is about an hour. I've been there for 6 months now, it's really starting to get to me! I'd love to find a job closer to where I live, but the problem is, I feel obligated to stay employed there, in a sense. It's my family's company, and I just feel an obligation. I know I shouldn't, but I do. Oh well, things will work out the way they are supposed to.

Todd and I broke up in July 2006. For good, this time. I've been single ever since. Sometimes it feels like I'll never be in another relationship again. Don't get me wrong, I am 100% completely over him. I'll admit, at the beginning of the breakup, the healing process, was killer. I honestly thought I had hit rock bottom. I was in a deep hole of depression. It hurts when you're with your first love for 2.5 years and all of a sudden, he decides he doesn't love you anymore. I'm proud to say now, that I am very happy it happened. I am a much stronger person and I can now see that we weren't good together, things wouldn't have been good for me now if I had stayed with him. I deserve the best, and I won't settle until I have just that! I have dated around and talked to guys since Todd, but I haven't actually been in another relationship since then. I have a major crush right now though, so who knows where that will go?!

Mom moved. Yep, up and moved to Louisiana. Decided she was bored with her life here. My sister and I were very upset at first, it kinda felt like she was giving up on us. Like, leaving her family. Then she said she just needed to do what makes her happy. She's lived her life making us happy and now that we are grown, it's her turn. At first, it was hard to swallow. Now, I can see it. It makes sense. I still miss her like crazy, but I still talk to her every day. She's my best friend.

I guess that's all I can think of right now. I'm kinda sick and I feel a headache coming on. I'll stop now, but I promise to try and keep this updated.